If you've read my ramblings for any sort of time, or actually met me, you know i can be an odd character.
If you've actually known me, you know I'm a lot more mellow and a lot less of a total fucking douche now than I used to be.
I was talking to probably next girl friend tonight and came to the realization that I'm softer than I used to be, nearing 30 in less than 2 months. (young compared to most of you I know) and its just a matter of looking back and thinking goddamn I was feisty, not sure why I fought that fight, or beat that dude down, or ran my ass off at work for that company, I just did.
And I guess as I near 30, I don't feel a need to fight unless i'm provoked, I don't feel I have much to prove as a racer, although that is still 100% effort, I can accept bullshit at work and walk away without really caring, it is what it is. I have learned patience, I guess maturity. Give it time.